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kid-in-th3-k0rn3r

1 week ago

I have this really bad problem of constantly acting how other expect. This is currently an issue bc when I met my friends I was in a manic phase (bipolar) and am currently in a more down area. So not only do I have to overreact and be hypher around them, this bleeds over to my personal life. I'm typically a very introverted person with a few exceptions, but I have to act happy to talk to them an it so annoying! Like bro jst let me be emo :( bc my preferred style is earthy yet kind of emo, yk like therian kind of style. But I allso dress scenmo on occasion so I'm jst pretending like that's my mane style bc that's what they expect!

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autism adhd anxiety school depresion bipolar teacher actually bipolar Fucking hat this bitch like stfu oh no someone talking in a monotone voice! How dare they! like bitch for someone who seemingly doesn't know what medical debt is you talk a lot of shit she was explaining why the USA government is better than china (idk anything about china so can't argue) But she kept glossing over our SHITTY ass public stuff She kept repeating that the government doesn't owe us much and we have to do shit ourselves And I was trying to point out the flaw in that so I asked a question about like a poor person needing emergency surgery and weather or not The government would pay for it And it took me 5 minutes for me to get a proper answer so understandable I was pretty anoid so my voice was a tiny bit off And like when your trying not to cry in frustration and your throught fucking hurts then yeah I'm gonna sound kind of fucking off But I'm good at hiding that so I was just monotone but bumpy tone yk And she held me after class and said that I need to be more patient with her bc she's Soooo patient with me (she's not) and that one day people won't be as patient And like I grew up only taking meds for my adhd but I have anxiety adhd bipolar and depression and no one was very patient with little undiagnosed unmedicated me so I know that I can't talk like that But like bitch most of my meds have worn off your my last class and your being a bitch so stfu And she lecture me on restraints and how I can't do that And like bitch I am SO restrained If this had happened last yea I would have been crying and screaming at her bc I was unmedicated and hadn't mastered turning off ng emotion Btw I don't have diagnosed autism

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doctorsickx

10 months ago

Trying to not to be afraid of this energy. One of the days when I feel sorry for myself. Sigh.