@na Diary - Blog Posts

I really am gonna throw up, today I ate too much and I also got a morning-after pill and it makes me SICK. I am literally gonna throw up how do I not do that. I am seriously emetophobic and I WOULD RATHER BE DEAD THAN THROW UP.

(Literally coming from someone who purg3s 😭😭 I hate when the urge to throw up is not made by my fingers in my throat fr.)

My bf can PICK ME UP SO EASY. like wtf I am heavier than him but 🤭🤭🤗🤗 HE CAN STILL LIFT MEEEEEE.

My boyfriends BMI is somewhere between 13 to 16 i'm crying.

I don't know his real weight but he's said it starts with a 4.

I'll stop when I can post myself with tight clothes and someone comments; "i know what you are" 😋

Anyone wanna be friends on discord ☠️ I wanna talk to people while fasting !! and disc is probably the only app where I can see and notice messages almost immediately bcs I have no friends there lol

(dc is: iinami#7879 btwww)

Today I binged with my best friend, and tomorrow I'm going on a sushi date with my bf. Gonna gain back those 3kgs I lost huh?

Honestly, taking pics of what you have ate during the day, and having a food blog, is a good way to restrict yourself, because why would you post a meal of a whale to the internet, proving that you're binging ☠️

MEANSPŒ

Some of YALL here be like: oh I lost 3 POUNDS, I'll reward myself with *FOOD THAT'S 9228372999 CALORIES* ☠️ like bro atp don't even call yourself anÄrexxic, cause if you reward yourself with food.. you got another whole ass (☠️) eeting disörder dude..

Check my followings for 2017/16 äňä blogz 😛😛

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How I lost weight

Since this blog started gaining popularity (+700 followers in 4 days??? Thanks guys!!!) I’ve had a lot of people ask me how I lost weight. I think it’s time to make a list:

•when you’re fasting never break a fast with high calorie food. Break with fat free low calorie options like fresh vegetables. The food you break a fast with is the most important food you eat.

•if you have a day where you plan on eating more calories than usual (a cheat/binge day) spread the calories out over the course if the day.

•drink lots of water in between bites of food. Makes you full faster.

•if you want to loose your appetite fast chug water. Like, too much water. It’ll hurt your stomach a bit but it helps remove brings urges. Also if it’s inly water it won’t hurt you if you end up puking.

•GUM!!!

•green tea is a lifesaver but all other herbal teas work too. My favorite is one called buddas blend heaven can wait. It has so much flavour and 0 calories and it really helps satisfy binge cravings. I drink like 8 cups a day. Also a great antioxidant and has a lot of other health benefits.

•if you’re craving tacos (I know I always am) take lettuce and put a tablespoon of zero fat sour cream on it and a tablespoon of salsa. It tricks you and reminds you enough of the food you’re craving. This works for other foods as well. Another one that works is mustard and ketchup on egg white or steamed mushroom to simulate a burger. Reminds you enough that the cravings go away.

•BOUNCE! I bounce my legs all the time. Once you start it becomes a habit and it helps you burn calories. They really had up.

•never weight yourself while you’re on your period. It’ll discourage you since bloating and water retention happens. You didn’t gain 2 pounds your body is just holding onto water.

•sit ups before bed and after you wake up. In bed helps cause it keeps your spine from brusing especially after you loose weight

•If you’re gonna eat something eat it 2 hours after you wake up. Eat it slowly with water/tea in between bites.

•put extra shit in your backpack if you’re in school and carry it around with you. You’ll get used to it and it helps you burn a few extra calories.

•take long routes everywhere.

•any time you have a burst of energy go for a walk.

•never fast for more than 3 days without at least some fresh veggies just for safety reasons.

•I don’t suggest purging but if you’re going to, drink a bunch of milk before you do and then wait about 5 minutes. Makes it easier and won’t damage your teeth as much.

•cardio!! DO YOUR CARDIO!!! TREADMILL!!!

•listen to music or watch a show while you work out. It’ll help you some out and not realize how tired you are.

•watch my 600lbs life while you’re on the treadmill. Trust me it’s motivation.

•learn to like healthy food. If you just talk about liking certain foods you can trick yourself into liking it. I honestly enjoy plain lettuce now.

•eat crushed ice

•CHEW. AND. SPIT. WHEN. YOU’RE. ALONE. I keep chocolate bars in my room and I chew up bites and spit them in the trash. Make sure you brush your teeth after and don’t swallow your spit. There’s sugar and calories in that.

HMMMM

The ANA game (extreme)

Before starting the rules, I want to specify that this is definitely not recommended, if you really want to lose weight, eat healthier and go to the gym 🙌 stay strong!

WATER

🍵0-1L : 3 pts

🍵1.5 - 2L : 5 pts

🍵+2L : 10 pts

FOOD

🍎800 - +1500kcal : 0 pts

🍎800 - 500kcal : 5 pts

🍎500 - 200kcal : 10 pts

🍎200 - 0kcal : 15 pts

RULES

🌼 No offered food

🌼 No restaurants (1 in a month)

🌼 Avoid the kitchen

SAFE FOOD

🍐 All vegetables and fruits

🍐 Pop corn

🍐 Dryed food

INTERMITTENT FASTING

⏰ 0 - 6h : 0pts

⏰ 6 - 15h : 3pts

⏰ 15 - 24h : 5pts

⏰ +24h : 10pts

REWARDS

GW1 : Face Mask

GW2 : Inspiring book

GW3 : New Shirt

GW4 : New short

GW5 : New skirt / dress

GW6 : New sweater

GW7 : Crop top

UGW 🔥: Special Outfit (prepare an entire outfit that you will only wear when you reach you UGW! )

In collaboration with @gonefrenchgirl 💕

I would do ANYTHING to NOT look like that person who stares back at me in the mirror.

I wanna fucking k8ll myself I hate gaining weight 🙁

I love the skinny part of my ed. Not the part where I get mad at anything food related, getting mad easily and having no energy at all.

I wanna drown myself. I have gained so much weight.

If you had to pick, would you choose something you have been wanting FOR YEAAAARS, something that you want SO BAD, or instead would you choose to have something you have been wanting for 15 minutes? Exactly.

that deep cleansing diarrhea coming in after not eating properly for 3 days 😍😍

I CAN FEEL MY SPINE. I CAN SEE MY COLLARBONES.

I hate being short and fat. I wish I was short and skinny.

Gonna fast until friday. The only meal I can have is the sushi I'm getting on friday. 💕

Why do you keep eating, no one is forcing you to do that ☠️☠️

It's got to the point where I get mad at anything food related.

Seeing this, is your reminder to drink cold water with cucumbers in it.

Seeing skinny people in the school cafeteria HURTS. Like how are you SO skinny even when you eat wtfff.

I wanna do something noticeable, that makes people think that I'm cool or something. I wanna be more than I am.

April is my month. April is the time I take a hold of myself and do better. In April, I will focus on weight loss, I will take school more seriously, I will take care of my skin better. I will be better.