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Me not having the best day, my mouth is hurting for some reason and my Bluetooth heads phone literally screamed at me and idk what do do with those
the gods must hate me today bc not only did i eat shit and fall running up a hill,
but i also need to recollect literally all of my items for my batch at work because my cart somehow disa-fucking-ppeared
im upset and about to cry
Bad days.
hey beetlejuice fans lemme ruin you day real quick
Lydia never asked for a divorce
I don't care what you say, after seeing this I can't be upset
Reimu isn’t in smash. A sad day for me. ;(
thank you, googly eyes on the red fire bell on the third floor of the engineering building. some days you're carrying all of us
Anyone ever have a day so bad you just start laughing from the absurdity of it?
I remember I had a day that, on paper, was awful. Bike had somehow had both of its wheels punctured, so I had to walk to school (it wasn't too far away from where I lived so if I made haste I wouldn't be late). While I'm walking, Aeolus decides to do everything in his power to ensure I fail. It was like walking against a leafblower, only bigger and proportinally stronger. However, while I pass the only place on the route where there are puddles, a truck speeds by, splashing a small tsunami directly at me. By this point I'm in a seriously bad mood, but it gets worse, as the moment I step foot on school grounds I trip on dogshit and fall in the earth-mud combination that the ground has become after yesterdays rainfall. On the way home I pass under a tree and I kid you not, like 3 acorns fall on my head and fall down my clothes, (these were like, decently heavy, not enough to hurt me but enough to be uncomfortable to be hit by). Then, when I get home, I realise I have lost my keys. By this point I am barely holding it together, but I can still go to my grandparent's house to get a spare and return it. Annoying, yes, but better than standing around in dirty clothes waiting for someone to come home. When I make it up there, I realise that they aren't home either, so I go to retrieve the spare key for their home, and after getting in, i realise that I don't actually know where their keys are. I call my grandmother, and she reveals that alas! The spare key is with them, as they use 1 keychain for all their keys. This was the point when the entire situation became so absurd that I just began laughing at it all, full on belly laughing at how comically unfortonate the day had been. I laughed most of the way home (it's a fairly short walk), and then it happened. As I got home to wait, my mom opened the door. She had been working from home all day, and heard me try to open the door but had been in the bathroom, and by the time she unlocked it I was already off to get the spare key. When I heard this I laughed hysterically she got genuinely worried, and then I showed her the back of my clothes and explained the entire thing, after which we both laughed like hell about it.
So it was a good day in practice, haha
Hugs doing good
me: *I carry a huge pile of books and suddenly everything falls to the floor and my feet
my friendo: hey do you need help? Let me help you. Did it hurt much?
me: I.. i don't need help thanks.. i'm.., i'm just..., it's just -I really don't need help - thank you.. I.. ugh :C
my friendo: *hugs me tight
me: *warmth spreads inside me and i can smile again
my friendo: I take some of the books - I won't allow you to carry so much heavy!
we: *keep all books together again
my friendo: *some books are almost falling down again
me: *I catch the books and put them on top of my pile
Thanks for your hug. That did very good for me ;3
my friendo: Of course! luv u
Last night the police arrested a poster ad agency model near my house.
They told us that he was a Russian im-poster.
A bug gets inside my ear
My mother (when I put a q tip inside my ear):- what are u doing???
Me:- I am debugging myself mom.
For those who don't understand the joke.
Crab talking to oyster (at their family dining table):- give me the food.
Crab:- no.
Crab:- Why?
Oyster:- because I am shellfish.
Crab:- me too bitch give me the fucking food.
Crab talking to oyster (at their family dining table):- give me the food.
Crab:- no.
Crab:- Why?
Oyster:- because I am shellfish.
Crab:- me too bitch give me the fucking food.
Anxiety Relief/Calming Gifs
I saw a few people who needed this so here you go. I hope it helps.
You’re ok. I know you’re all stressed out, but try to relax a bit. <3
Anxiety Relief/Calming Gifs: Part 2
Here’s the thing about personality disorders.
Among everyone I know with Avoidant Personality Disorder, I’m one of the happiest, most outgoing, and most emotionally secure.
I have strong, positive, intimate relationships in my life.
I feel comfortable interacting with strangers.
I even make friends easily.
(The secret they don’t tell you is that even when you’re good at it, not everyone is a good choice to try it with!)
But this week, despite all of those things,
I still turned off my phone to avoid a dreaded phonecall.
I was crushed by a moderate disappointment.
I genuinely worry that my friends have stopped liking me, and that I’m not welcome in my social groups anymore (“they’re finally onto me!”).
When someone confronted me about something, even without any overt hostility, I had an anxiety attack before I could respond. And after the conversation I cried in bed, so hard that when I got up, I had tiny fresh bruises around my eyes.
Most days, I have the impulse to take down posts that feel too personal, too confused, too me.
I doubt myself and everything I’m trying to do. Sometimes I still feel like hiding in a closet for the rest of my life would be a better idea.
And I obviously still struggle with all my usual avoidance problems -- like the effort it takes to leave the house.
There are extenuating circumstances, but...
...the thing about having a personality disorder -- or any mental illness! -- is that it’s always there in the background.
It’s usually always under the surface. It can affect everything in your life.
And even when someone seems to be doing really, really well, this is still something they have to be aware of and careful with. Sometimes, if you’re recovering, it feels like it’s always waiting to take over again.
There are always triggers. There are always situations that will prompt a disordered response. Sometimes you’ll be able to choose away from acting on that response, and sometimes you won’t.
And there’s never a time when self-care stops being important.
So if you’re struggling?
Don’t worry. It doesn’t mean anything’s wrong with you, and it doesn’t mean you’re worse than everybody else. Because everybody has times where things are hard and awful.
It’s okay to talk about how much it sucks. We all need validation and support.
It’s also okay to deliberately focus on what’s good and what successes you’re having, if that’s helpful for you.
You can even do both at the same time. In spite of all the things I listed up there:
I turned my phone back on and called them back! I used my self-talk skills to cope with the disappointment! I kept showing up to my social group! I had the confrontational talk and survived! I didn’t take down any posts! I learned some things!
Most of us tend to downplay our victories and emphasize our faults and mistakes. Consciously doing the opposite of that can help us change our thought habits.
But mostly:
There’s no wrong way to heal. There’s no wrong way to get better, or learn what you need to learn. And you can get stronger and grow as a person, even when you have lots of bad days.
What works for you is good enough, and that’s all that matters. <3
how to save a bad day.
Today was not a good day. I had an exam in the morning that I prepared so hard for but I walked out knowing I'd pretty much failed. I walked out pretty dejected and just overall, I felt pretty lost. So I thought I'd take myself out (a lil pity solo date) to try and make myself feel better.
Go on a walk. Seeing as I was already out of the house (I was at uni) I took myself on a little walk. I walked into town and just browsed through a bunch of shops. I didn't need anything so it was nice to just window shop.
Go to a coffee shop. I went to Black Sheep Coffee - one of my favourite coffee shops in town - and ordered a decaf coffee (it was like midday so I chose decaf so that I'd actually be able to sleep). I sat on a little corner table and just people watched for a little bit, while I was waiting for my coffee.
Read a book. After getting my coffee, I pulled out my book. I'm currently reading Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief. NGL, I was slightly self-conscious - I live in predominantly a university town so there are a lot of people my age and older, and I am reading a book aimed at children - but in all honesty, I love the book too much to dwell on it for too long.
Journal. After a while of reading and sipping my coffee, I felt a bit more calm and wanted to journal. Journalling helps me when I'm stressed or anxious sometimes because it helps me work out exactly how I feel. It also helps me keep track of what happened when because I have the worst memory ever. After journalling (and starting on a bit of revision) I headed off home - the walk was nice, even if it's long. I listened to a podcast on the way home. NGL though, it was freezing cold because it was like 2 -3 degrees at the time.
Shower. I got home and took a shower to warm up. I will say though showers are great to let go of whatever's weighing on you. Literally, let it wash away from you :)
Relax/Do Something Entertaining. I watched a few more episodes of Doctor Who while waiting for my hair to dry. I also started crocheting a new project :)
Make Dinner. I made (Fake) Chicken Noodle Soup for dinner - if you want a recipe, let me know and I'll post it here or on my tiktok (@niagosavi).
Try and Get An Early Night. I think I went to bed around 10pm that night - I had been awake since like 6am so I was knackered.
Bad days are inevitable but they are not the end of the world. Remember, it's a bad day, not a bad life.