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3 or 4 years of braces just to deal with these UGLY YELLLOW REATIANERS 😡 I hate retainers sm, like wdym I have to wear this for the REST OF MY LIFE 😭 and why are they so impossible to clean, I've literally tried everything, vinegar, baking soda, toothpaste, UGHHEHEHEHEHEJKWKKE

I felt so overwhelmed today honestly... like I just didn't know how to react to anything at all. I didn't like to feel the contact on myself but I dismissed it for light dizziness or something. Now I want to isolate myself but it wasn't even that big I just idk

I feel guilty too chffvhgvhfhyfg

Dawg why am I so extra...

No seriously I feel so extra as I'm working on my dr self art bc nothing matches !!! Like dude ya gotta be consistent what're you wearing... what're you wearringngngng😭 like yes I designed this but I don't know how to make it look coherent when it comes to color schemes

Part of the fit is changeable and I can't find how to make the rest stay constant and still fit with the ever-so-indecisive-extra-goofy-parts-that-switch-every-day...

it's valentines tmrw for me and I'm still working on my dr self art for sk8ti... so now I'm wondering what valentines is gonna be like when it comes around in my sk8ti dr.. like ok that the guys usually only give stuff like that to their gfs on white day but since I'm a foreigner... and so is Langa... would we both do it differently? I mean I'm sure we're both aware of the customs and we'd have to follow along... but the only thing I do on valentines is give candy/chocolate to my friends... so would I do that still? I mean I definitely would, regardless... I wonder if Langa would too, since he's kind of oblivious sometimes.. wait no. Scratch that, I don't think he'd even know that doing anything on those days is a thing unless his mom reminded him.

Wait but obligatory chocolate is acceptable... but isn't that only between gals and guys... yk what screw it I'm scripting that not a damn bad thing happens bc I wanna give treats to all my friends💥💥💥

I need Y’all to understand

Bart Allen is F E R A L. He's the kinda 'Grey Morals' that is unkempt and unpredictable, and otherwise dangerous.

He's the kind of person that can Lie to Batman's face. And he has. Multiple times. And got away with most of it. Bart will litterally throw hands and that is fact. He has made death threats on a lotta people. That image circulated widely in the meme community of a plush duckling carrying a knife? That's Bart energy. Cute, will be nice, unless you give him reason not to and then his entire persona is just poof, replaced with a wolf. His entire families morals are "We can solve all our problems with friendship" and Bart's morals are "I can spit in the face of death and you can quote me on that". He's better suited for the Batfam than the Flashfam (cept when he's with Max: Max Mercury Supremacy). Hell, he's better suited for the rogues than with Flashfam. He's unafraid to die, will protect what he loves at any cost, and most likely will become unhinged. His friends can only keep a collar on him for so long before he becomes wild and I love that. I love his character cause it's deep, deeper than the developers intended to make him, and he's filled with so much baggage and emotions that he carries like a pro. Sure, Wally's the fastest, Barry's the beloved son of central, but Bart? Bart is one of the strongest heroes, not just for his unwavering will and strength, but his urgency to do the right thing, even if it's the world against him. He loves to laugh, so he does. He doesn't like reflecting on his trauma, so he doesn't. And he comes out okay because he knows time is always moving forewards and things are only in the present. He's a time anomaly, and yet he doesn't mind at all. He doesn't need to belong to a timeline, he belongs with his friends. He knows what needs to be done and he does it.

Bart Allen is the strongest hero and I will protect him.

I am every day growing more and more irrationally sick of the jd fandom massively downplaying Jackson and exer's relationship.

They're BOTH the main characters (Jackson more but still). They're the face of the webtoon. Their relationship is the most important thing in the plot IF it's not the whole plot.

And yet most readers just don't care and it's REALLY getting on my nerves.

Doflamingo helping Sophia with all that sickness.

So, uh. I published Love at first bite (SanjixOC) and Breeder Village's (DoflamingoxOC, highly problematic) next chapters today on AO3. In this newest chapter of Breeder Village, Doflamingo helps a woman who feels sick after he takes her on a flight with him.

I made a joke making fun of the supposed AO3 author's curse just yesterday.

Then suddenly today I start feeling sick. Bim bang boom, I'm living out my Doflamingo fic fantasy. Except I don't have a Doflamingo helping me out. Fate forgot like the most important part to this equation. So yeah. I'm filing a complaint with Fortuna or whatever idiot was responsible for this.

Also, dear body, please let me at least drink water again? I'm starting to feel like this.

So yeah! A little rant post to file these coincidences together. I still refuse to believe in the curse cause screw that.

After my first bout of sickness I sat down in bed and drew Doflamingo with the last of my energy. I have a very strong tendency towards being melodramatic so I was like "if I go out here, I wanna go out doing what I love." Not that the art turned out particularly great because of that, unfortunately.

Either way! Thanks for coming to my pity party, I'll tone it down from here on out again, but I am just a melodramatic little bitch :^)

i dunno if there’s a lookism fandom on tumblr but that one dude in charge of hostel 2.0? the awful human being??? olly wang (i had to look it up). yeah his backstory was sad, yeah his life sucked. i can sympathize with that

but i cannot take people literally saying like, aww poor dude, he just had a bunch of bad stuff happen to him,,,, so sadd,,, he deserved better :(((( 

like he was a kid, and the oppressive environment he grew up in etc was awful. no denying that. 

HOWEVER he did so much bad shit. he weaponized children, and sold them!!! stop saying poor babby :((((  that genuinely upsets me. i know it’s just fiction, but it makes me so mad. Just because he had a rough life doesn’t mean he’s a poor babbbeyyy uwu. It doesn’t justify all of the truly awful shit he did. 

i know this is really late and everything, and there might have been people who said this already, but i caught up after not reading it for a while and the top comments (that i just happened to see on webtoon when i read it) all said stuff like this and it upset me. I’m not attacking anyone, this is my opinion. 

It’s my opinion that it’s possible to feel bad for all the stuff that happened in his childhood without downplaying all the bad stuff he did. It’s a complex narrative, we can have complex feelings about it. I don’t think it should be simplified down to, he had no other choice bc his childhood was so bad :((

Like i said, this isn’t attacking anyone. I know my words were harsh (this is a rant post lol and i wanted to get this off my chest), but i genuinely don’t mean to offend anyone, or downplay anyone’s feelings on this. i’m pretty sure no one was justifying his actions when they said this stuff, but i do think it downplays the awful things he did and oversimplifies the situation. these just my feelings toward the situation, and like i said, i wanted to get them off my chest

You know what ruins me ?

The sibling bonds in demon slayer.

Usually i think about the shinazugawa siblings but NO. IM TALKING ABOUT THE KAMADOS TODAY

Imagine the pain of having to watch your sibling go through it time and time again just to protect you ? And the worst part is that it's applied both ways. Well it's not the worst because I think demon slayer is so good at showing what lengths you would go for your loved ones.

What takes me out every sing darn time is the first time tanjirou is trying to save nezuko. Imagine, he was walking home after a typical day, and a night spent away from his family, completely unassuming of what his neighbour had unintentionally saved him from.

That is, until he smells blood. Imagine the fear that makes his heart, his heart that has been raised to love and care, drop and ache with paranoia.

And then he's met with the horrible sight of nezuko, his closest sibling, resting in a pool of her own blood that stains everything, from her hair, to her face, to her clothes, to the child in her arms, to the snow that they lie one, to the snow that falls gently on them. His soul is already grieving despite the fact that all he feels is despair and confusion .

And demon slayer does a really good job at conveying that hurt and panic through they way they animated the scene:

And nothing is said, tanjirou just screams, devastated by the scene in front of him. What does he do ?

He must've felt the world just crashing around him as all that matters to him is taken away in the most cruel way possible.

As an older sibling, I can't even fathom the idea of losing my younger brother. Granted, he's not that young anymore. He's always going to be a baby to me. So when I first saw this scene, all I could imagine was the heartbreak tanjirou must feel. As well as the feelings of failure as he wasn't even there to protect his siblings.

THE PAIN DOESNT EVEN STOP THERE GUYS.

I think it's common knowledge that tajirous first reaction to his whole family being slaughtered isn't instant tears. It's just shock and disbelief that something so horrific has happened to him.

Even after he's processed that, his second reaction is to check if anyone is still alive. Which to me is just

BECAUSE HOW ELSE WOULD HE KNOW THAT NEZUKO IS STILL WARM ? HOW WOULD HE KNOW THAT NEZUKO IS THE ONLY ONE THATS WARM ???

imagine the rush of adrenaline his body gets when he realises that nezuko could still be alive ? Once again, Ufotable delivers with the portrayal of this as you can see it tanjirou's body language. The way nezuko has been hastily wrapped up to preserve as much of the little body heat she's still producing. The way tanjirou is moving as fast as he can as a 13 year old kid with another 12 year old on top of him. The way he literally says that his lungs feel on fire but he keeps pushing on because it's his little sister.

It's heart breaking.

Guys the kamado siblings actually have me in a clutch. They care so much for each other that it's so cute but devastating at the same time. I think this is one of the main reasons why I think that nezuko is the sole reason as to why tanjirou hasn't gone fully insane yet.

I mean, the guy sees ghosts at like every corner, but he doesn't even bat an eye. He has two very loud and hyper friends that he's constantly surrounded with. And a breathing technique literally no one has seen in a thousand years. And he questions none of it bruh, his sister is in his backpack. He's fine. There's literally nothing to worry about. lmao tanjirou is so funny for that *sighs sadly

tanjirou's grief is lowkey overlooked sometimes. It's cute that nezuko and tanjirou care for each other but it's also so sad to me as to why they are so close.

I've seen bakugo being compared to sanemi surprisingly a lot. The reason why it's so surprising is because they're not similar ? The only way I see a similarity is their constant anger.

But their anger stems from different reasons which sets their characters completely apart !!

This is NOT a bakugo vs sanemi u reading the wrong thing if ur looking for that lmao I suck at analysing character fighting styles and how they could compare ( like wth is hax 😭) I DIGRESS

AND ALSO SPOILERS FOR BOTH MHA AND DEMON SLAYER (?)

sanemi's anger mainly from what we see is a portrayed as a hatred for demons which stemmed from his traumatic past (where he ended up killing his own mother due to her turning into a demon and killing the rest of their family.)

Seems straight forward but it's literally why everytime we see him it's like he has 10 sticks up his ass.

His whole career is based around killing demons so when he sees ppl with the same job slacking and not able to fend for themselves, he most likely thinks that no one is taking it seriously- as if they haven't had bad experiences; that they aren't fortunate to have had survived and are still able to get up protect others. His anger is almost encouraging if you think of it from this perspective.

You can see it as him basically forcing them to get better so they're not a burden to themselves and others in the battlefield (just in a really aggressive, violent, and not necessarily *right* way).

I'm convinced that some of his anger is also stemmed from fear. Obviously as a hashira he has the responsibility of protecting the lower ranks whilst fighting but maybe the training arc really puts into perspective just how many lives are actually at stake which makes him realise *how much* humanity is depending on him as a hashira. I feel like the fear is deeply rooted from his past of not being able to protect those he loves, his family, masachika, etc. So if he can't even look after his close ones, how's he supposed to protect a bunch of random ppl ? Ygwim ?

BAKUGO on the other hand -- >

This guy's anger stemmed from an inferiority complex that was so severe that he put on a facade to make himself seem so much bigger than he actually felt.

I think midoriya could always see this, which was why he never held him at Gun Point for an apology for the literal torment he put him through.

We can also see a small glimpse of his constant self-criticism during the fight against midoriya after all might's fight with afo, when he blames himself for all might's downfall.

This is key because it shows that he doesn't just direct his anger at others but clearly at himself, too. Using this, you could probably make the judgement that when he lashes out at his friends, he probably regrets it straight after. *especially* after his character development, where he acknowledges that he always felt inferior to midoriya and decided to bully him to make himself feel bigger.

Old habits die so hard, so he probably struggled to be less aggressive towards everyone around him.

The difference between sanemi and bakugo is that:

Sanemi is confident in himself but not so confident in others and their strength which is why he pushes them *so* hard. His training is definitely the most brutal out of all the hashiras'

You can argue its gyomei but his training hasn't given slayers black eyes and swollen knuckles. Tanjiro is exhibit A if you want an example. I DIGRESS (again)

Whilst bakugo is not confident in himself, which to, what I believe, is the reason for his aggressive attitude towards others.

BASICALLY the way I see it is that sanemis aggression isn't necessarily presented to show him putting other characters down unlike bakugo who's entrance was literally as a bully who told midoriya to kill himself setting in stone that his anger resulted in others feeling inferior to him.

I really like both characters - sanemi more tbh so if u think I missed anything out pls point it out 🤞

Hot take to some ppl but I genuinely think giyu and sanemi have more potential than giyu and shinobu.

I would say I'm not comparing ships and blah blah blah but if I simmer it down I quite literally am so bear with me 🙈

1. Wind and water : this combo wombo gets me everytime, two natural elements ? SIGN ME UPPPP

Storms, hurricanes, whirlpools, like wind and water are just meant to be. And when you compare that to water and insects it doesn't really click as well, no hate to giyushino shippers ofc, it just feels like there's a lack of chemistry (literally) compared to wind and water.

2. The dynamics: we all know giyu cares for shinobu and shinobu cares for giyu but I feel like it's more of a sibling dynamic if anything. Shinobu constantly annoying and bothering giyu whilst he just tolerates it because he likes the company shouts siblings to me.

And we see this kind of treatment by giyu in other relationships, too, like him and tanjiro, e.g., an entire episode is dedicated to tanjiro bothering giyu until he starts talking. Tanjiros nagging is very, very similar to shinobu, and if you can confidently say that tanjiro and giyu are sibling coded, then you can't *really* confidently say giyu doesn't see shinobu in a similar way. Right ?

ON THE OTHER HAND, sanemi and giyu have this relationship based on a misunderstanding (that I believe if it did not happen they would get along more than obanai and sanemi) not only that but giyu also actively wants to be his friend which isn't stated the same for shinobu. You could argue that she and giyu are already friends, but if they were, I'm sure he would be much more open around her. He literally *smiled* at the thought of giving sanemi his favourite food when there's actually no scene of giyu smiling around shinobu. You can't tell me that he isn't way too eager to become his no. 1 hater's best friend (or boyfriend).

3. THE OBSESSION GOES BOTH WAYS this post may make it seem like giyu is pining after an aloof and mysterious sanemi, but NO.

Sanemis weird obsession with giyu and his attitude exceeds iguros. You can see it when giyu tries to leave the hashira meeting early, and both iguro and sanemi have a problem with this, but only sanemi gets up to stop him physically. NOT ONLY THAT but when they have their little spar and tanjiro interrupts them he accuses him of spying on them. Like there's nothing secret about a sparring session unless there was something deeper going on at the same time... (we know what u are).

And don't even get me started on that official art that was posted the other day like their breathing techniques literally make a heart. And it was sanemi not shinobu 😭.

If you stuck with this rant until the end thank yeur and ur welcome to ask questions 🫶

Minor kny spoilers (?) And rant

I'll never get over how well the character deaths are written in kny. Like you get introduced to this colourful and very characteristic individual, you grow attached to them, you learn their backstory and you just think that the character will see the end of the story. That's what you think.

NO, gotouge just kills them off but in the most heartbreaking and soul crushing way, and it never fails to make me feel sad.

Kny is just full of tragedies that take place for the greater good with a bittersweet ending. A lot of people hate on kny saying that the plot isn't interesting and it's only saved by the animation. How does that explain the manga being one of the best-selling manga globally then, huh?

But I like how there's a pure evil villain, not a sad, misunderstood character with a complex background(not hating on those plots). Simplicity is nice sometimes.

I have so much more to say but I'm not writing allat

so the apk i use for spotify isn't working anymore (for right now, hopefully the mod devs can get past it once more 🔥🔥) because something something spotify can sense when you use apks or some shit for premium... ofc i found something new in like no time flat but.

come on. maybe if there weren't so many obtrusive ads on mobile and premium wasn't so expensive, we wouldn't NEED or WANT to use apks. y'all aren't getting my fucking money when i have better shit to use it on.

i remember back in Ye Olden Days when spotify was a hellscape theorized to have viruses up the ass, but no ads. it was absolute hell to navigate the app, but it was, in my humble yet forceful opinion, way better than it is now. i'm sick of ceos modernizing and changing everything just because they want more money. you HAVE enough money. you have an app that is used by MILLIONS, you moneyhungry fuckwits.

just let me listen to my goddamn music uninterrupted, please. all i ask!

If I see one more goddamn person using aromantic or aroace people as a shield against their homophobia I'm going to lose it. It's all "people are reducing platonic relationships!!!!" but only when it's a queer ship. When there's an actual aromantic nearby? Silence. Crickets. Fuck you

I love the aromantic or aro-spec Ruan Mei headcanon but I fucking hate like 90% of the people who headcanon her as aro/ace.

Her whole struggle to understand love and passing that on to the cat cakes she created would be so fascinating to explore through the lens of being aro. Because yeah, struggling to differentiate between different types of "love" is a very aro experience.

But so. Fucking. Often. The sentiment I see around the headcanon? "Ruan Mei is emotionless and therefore aroace," or even worse (and this is a direct quote lifted from a comment I saw, and I have seen similar ones multiple times), "I'd consider Ruan Mei's psychopathic ass to be aroace". Which is, in my opinion, very telling of the way you think about aroace people. Because why is your one aroace headcanon the character who is shown to have dubious-at-best ethics and little understanding of other people? Why do you think that this makes her aromantic?

I am so, so tired of the idea that "aromantic/asexual = emotionless" or vice versa. We have emotions. We just don't experience romantic/sexual attraction. The idea that aromantic people have something wrong with them, that we are somehow broken, is an idea that we should have left behind long ago and I'm fucking tired.

I love Rick Riordan but there’s just a few issues with how Rick writes that can makes his books get repetitive

Pretty much all of the gods are unserious which can be funny at first but it gets tiring and repetitive when that’s all that happens there’s a few exceptions but still.

Like for example Odin in MCGA I personally feel like the books would have been better if he was a more serious character, and that vibe fits the god better than the unserious character who loves to make PowerPoints that Rick wrote him as.

Another thing that gets repetitive is that all the ships have the same dynamic as PercaBeths one that makes fun of the other and one that makes jokes that dynamic worked great for them but less so for other characters.

Like Leo for example, he always makes jokes to hide his trauma his coping mechanism is being funny and while Calypso is great she’s not the kind of person he needs. Leo needs someone who’s kinder to him and can see past his facade and help him when he needs it, not someone who makes fun of him.

There’s a few other details but I’ll stop here. And again I love Ricks books but after reading so many it is starting to feel repetitive especially since I’m now on the third book of MCGA and the way Magnus acts and a few of the others too so closely resembles Percy’s book feels unoriginal and that can make it harder for me to read since it’s kinda like grabbing mostly the same characters but shoving them into a new story with new names and faces.

Anyways what do you think?

May sucks

Ever since twenty twenty it always has sucked, the first year my whole family got COVID except for my mom until we were all negative and she was finally positive so we had to quarantine the whole month, the next year I believe I fractured my wrist, but the worst was last year when my mom’s artificial hip fell out of its socket and my mom and dads oven almost burned their house down, luckily this year hasn’t been so bad but my mom got stung by a wasp and thought it was infected or something but actually the stinger was still in there! And I’ve been having problems with my skin. So overall yeah I hate may sorry to everyone who’s birthday is in may but it’s cursed and there’s nothing I can do about it, luckily though it’s almost June which is pride month so at least there’s that.

The amount of ppl who don’t realize that Alicent choosing Helaena’s safety over her sons and Helaena willingly giving up her son to protect her daughter are direct parallels drives me crazy. LIKE ITS SO OBVIOUS!!!!! And it’s such an important part of the message of the show and also Alicent’s character development!!!!

I think that’s why it makes me so mad when ppl berate Alicent in the finale for “choosing Rhaenyra”! Because she wasn’t choosing Rhaenyra, she was choosing her daughter! Her now being able to be at peace with Rhaenyra was an obvious benefit, because her love for Rhaenyra is also important, BUT she never would have made that choice for JUST Rhaenyra.

It’s all about making sacrifices as a mother. And how when it comes down to it, society wants you to choose your sons, because they’re the heirs, and they’re the ones who are “more important”. I mean, come on people, the reason why Aemma died is because Viserys was so obsessed with having a son. That’s a major part of the message about misogyny.

And so Alicent and Helaena choosing their daughters was their rebuttal against the patriarchy, and the only one they could really make.

And when it comes down to it, it was also Alicent choosing her younger self. This season also showed that Alicent really sees herself in her daughter, so in a way, choosing Helaena was also her way of making things up to her younger self. So, she also chose herself over her sons. Which again, she never would have done if she wasn’t protecting Helaena. But it annoys me when people call this selfish, because it’s like…. Yeah! She’s allowed to be selfish for once in her life. I was shocked by the amount of ppl who are self proclaimed “Alicent apologists” being annoyed once they perceived her as not a saint anymore. I also admired her love for her kids in the first season, but I’m also proud of how she’s growing to choose herself! And while she’s definitely not evil like her weird misogynistic haters make her out to be, she DOES have flaws. She’s a genuinely complex character, which is the reason why I thought everyone who liked her liked her in the first place.

But yeah it just annoys me when people say the finale was out of left field because I thought that Alicent’s actions in it made a lot of sense honestly. Idk maybe it’s because it’s different from the book and I’ve never read the book…

But during Blood and Cheese when Helaena chose her daughter I was like “I sense a parallel coming” … this is going to show Alicent something important… and I was not surprised when the parallel delivered 🤷

Someone tear my uterus out and give it to those in need of one. This shit does nothing but cause trouble.

What do you mean that for a week before I bleed, I get to have extreme anger and mood swings, borderline hospital trip worthy thoughts, extreme nausea, dizziness, migraines, and more

THEN I bleed nonstop for a bit over a week while still feeling a lot of those symptoms.

Get this thing out of me I don't want children, my family genetics are too fucked and I'd probably traumatize it. I have no use for this organ and the torture it brings get it out of me.

Just saw someone say the neden game aged poorly because of the line about a girl's tits when literally the context of the song is both the men saying the worst possible thing they could think of to impress the woman like y'all LISTEN TO THE LYRICS IM BEGGING 😭 As if the whole point of ICP isn't to shock people like please 💔

Uhhh just a rant I made bc I hate capcut templates— for me I think templates just lack originality

Drawing takes so long. And then there's no motivation and then you don't want to draw but you've already started it so you have to finish and I don't want to struggle through drawing because it's one of my favorite hobbies but I have too

Heyy, so...(warning: rant)

The chapter five of A Little peek into the Universe is almost 14 and a half pages long, right?

But, there's a problem, and it's the fact that IM STILL NOT FINISHED. IN FACT, I HAVEN'T REACHED THE BEST PART YET.

which makes me mad, even if I spected it to take a lot of time, considering the many things I'm trying to cover in a single chapter.

I don't want to keep delaying the project any longer, and I promised myself that after this chapter I would focus on my original story and ocs, BUT GODAMM ITS TAKING TOO LONG ARGHHHHH-

Feeling

Sick-er

A RANT

I just realized something as i am on tumblr and on insta. .. it physically hurts me that i can't reblog LADS fic or art or comic ... any content on lads on instagram ..... 🙂🙂🙂 and here

I have become so confident and shameless at this point ..... its concerning 😆😆

Cuz at first i was afraid and scared to either reblog write or comment on any fic but then i realized

~ Wait .... they r writers and readers tooo.. and as a writer and reader i would love if anyone commented or liked or reblogged ny works.. so whats stopping me

So

Yes

Thats my rant

Thank you for coming to my rant 😉🤣😆😂😂

And be prepared for me to find posts and comment on them ... 🤪🤪

I was going to write another rant about robby keene and how mistreated he is (I actually wrote 1/4 of it ) but then tumblr deleted some of it and I lost motivation so yeah

You are all spared for today

Rant about Epilogue Vierla and Bill:

Whenever I see these two they just bring out something in me like when I see the clearly in love interests in shows but then they never get together. They give the peak definition of ‘Forbidden Love' no matter how many times they try to make it work it won’t ever happen, the love they have for each other is forbidden, they can’t touch, they can’t stare at each other for too long, they can’t do anything, the glimpse of love they have for each other is symbolic towards the other. Even if they try to get together, it wouldn’t work, it’s like trying to jam in a puzzle piece you know would fit but just can’t mesh well with each other. It’s heartbreaking for them, to know that they won’t ever be together, to know how the other one is feeling. Bill wouldn’t think like this, but he does, and thought about her for YEARS on end. The thought of them lingers in his mind, and so does she. How could they be so distant yet be so close?

I hate them so much chat.

I just explained the entire Poppy Playtime lore to my dad.

It was crazy because I’m so used to thinking in fanfiction I forgot what the actual lore was like

I’ve drifted off a lot into Smaller Bodies land (writing is my special interest) and I felt a little lost a few times, and now it’s like I’ve been struck with a brick like… OHHH SO THIS IS WHAT IM WRITING

Hehe I like Harley Sawyer he’s cool :3 we call him Harley Soysauce in this house

I’ve been trying to write more about him for DAT, so I’ve actually fully renamed/reworked what I’m doing to give more to his character. This isn’t a problem either because I’m writing about him as a human, not a sketchy computer guy

Also. I have stages where I get really bad anxiety about my own writing and start feeling like everyone hates me/is disappointed in me, and because of it I’m completely ignoring my AO3 notifications. If anyone’s left a comment, I haven’t checked because I’m too nervous. I used to check them constantly but now have 32 (?) unreads. Lol

I recently read over my own stuff and went “oh wait this isn’t as bad as I thought” and am writing that funky DAT Harley Sawyer thing. I think it’d be cool to release on Jan 30th since that’s when Chapter 4 comes out.

I’ve also somewhat neglected tumblr in favour of my Instagram (@qibsichan). Tumblr is scary

Uh thanks for reading, moots!

I wish I could draw/write more :( I know you’re meant to balance everything out but I love creating things so much and see people with full coloured comics and animations and I know I could do that if I had the time

Mostly I’m grateful for anyone who enjoys my stuff :) I’ve decided I want to be a creative director, an author or a disability worker. Current dream is to make a fictional book series covering characters with different disabilities to spread awareness and love

I just… I wanna make!!!! I wanna make more

sometimes i wonder if people think about me in the same ways that i think about them. Like.. do people ever think about what im doing? Or how im doing?? Do they ever wonder if im awake or not? Am I ever on anyone’s mind? Platonic or not.

I feel like i think about people way more than i should. And sometimes i think about everyone all at once (however that works . . .)