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i hate food

but not in a way of just being picky or sum shit like just thinking about food makes me wanna throw up my insides out, when i eat i feel so dirty as if i rolled around in dirt. I despise it idk how ppl enjoy it

oh to look like this

Reblog if you’re looking for 3d moots this February!!!

imagine failing at being dis0rder3d, couldn’t be me!!!

(it’s me wtf is happening)

Reminder that w/ an@ you can still eat tasty stuff:

Breakfast after 18h fast.

-Black coffee (2kcal)

-Rice Cake (28kcal)

-Egg whites omelette (1x17kcal)

-Pickles (11kcal)

TOTAL: 57kcal

why isn’t my f*cking laxative working?? 😭😭😭 i binged too much and i cannot puke. FUCK. MY. LIFE.

I feel like if I treat my ana like a weight loss journey more than a disorder, it could be a lot more easier, plus I wouldn’t torture myself because I ate a cookie or I binged. From now on, I’m going to have a good relationship with food inside my disorder. You may not call it ana but idc, this shi is torturing me. I’m still going to do OMAD and fast.

I’ve just seen a girl in my gym that has my goal body. I’m going to kms 😭😭😭

I’ve been maintaining for a really long time and I feel so bad about it, I feel like restricting is worse now than before for some reason. I’m starting rn.

Today I ate SOOO bad and I’ve gained weight, i’m not longer on my gw F***. I tried To purge but I couldn’t. Don’t get me wrong, I like an@ but I sometimes prefer to be more of a mi@ girl. 😮‍💨

she is so me

manifesting on my journal.

.🦢.

Diet Coke and cigs are the only things keeping me alive. ♡

I binged the FIFTH FUCKING DAY IN A ROW.

Holy shit. I feel so ashamed for even typing this and I don't know how or why I could let that happen. And I could've restricted so easily, too, yesterday and today because my parents were at work and I was home alone with my siblings, but NOOO I had to fucking...

I haven't even weighed myself but I'm sure it's going to be awful when I do, especially since I've been doing so well before (I've lost a lot of weight and haven't binged for a relatively long time). I've probably ruined all the progress of the past weeks.

I'm going to fucking change now. I don't think today can be saved honestly, even if I at least counted most of my calories and compared to the other days, it wasn't as bad, but I'm still going to get in my steps and then I'll be fucking DONE with binging. Thankfully, we'll soon visit my Grandma and on travel days I can fast usually, so I'm going to absolutely use that as sort of catalyst for finally locking in again, but of course I'm going to start RIGHT FUCKING NOW.

I can't go back to school after Easter break having gained like 5kg or something, not when we have so many swimming classes atm and all my friends were calling me skinny and complimenting my waist. I still have a week and a half to lock in and lose weight and I'm going to use it.

In the second week, only my sister and I will be home for a couple of days and maybe I'll even try to fast through all of them (depending on how much school work I'll have left to do then)

So yeah, sorry for rambling but I do feel slightly better now because of it

Not calories being up there as my recommendations 😭

Between all these 13 year olds on 3dblrr, I feel really old.