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I’ve been maintaining for a really long time and I feel so bad about it, I feel like restricting is worse now than before for some reason. I’m starting rn.

Today I ate SOOO bad and I’ve gained weight, i’m not longer on my gw F***. I tried To purge but I couldn’t. Don’t get me wrong, I like an@ but I sometimes prefer to be more of a mi@ girl. 😮‍💨

*ೃNo binges July✩‧₊˚

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she is so me

manifesting on my journal.

What I ate today:

- Broccoli (140g-49cals)

- Bass (50g-63cals)

- Watermelon (4g-2cals)

- Strawberry (6g-2cals)

- Pineapple (90g-45cals)

Recommended calorie intake: 1510cals

Total of calories eaten: 160cals

PD: I did so well today, I hope I don’t f*** it up later!!!!

My best friend is the moon. She always listens to me when i need it. I love smoking c1garettes white talking to her. She is the only one who understands me. Love you moon xoxo.

a girl trapped in her thought is a girl you doesnt live

That’s it, im f rel@psing.

@NA HELP!!

Guys please i know this sounds bad, but could you 1nsult me or something? Like i swear the meanspø is not f working and i need to get back on track rn.

Please comment me sh1t.

I have a love-hate relationship with lax, like i love how skinny i feel after using them, but i hate feeling my @ss is on f fire.

MEANSPØ.

You choose your destiny.

You choose your d13t.

You choose the person you want to become.

You choose your b0dy.

Remember that the only person who is making you f47 is yourself.

I NEED TIPS!!!

I’m just starting with anå, what vitamins should I take???

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Diet Coke and cigs are the only things keeping me alive. ♡

god i look like shit

body check btw but it’s not really skinny enough to need a tw!😜

which one is best

god i want to die

my boyfriend is gonna break up with me and i gained five pounds bc of halloween

"A skirt should be the size of a belt" 😝

I'm gonna try to do specific workouts for a thigh gap I'll tell you how it goes😆

bodycheck

I can like almost fit both of my hands around my thighs lol like a 2 inch gap 😝 unfortunately I do not have a thigh gap 😔😔😔😔

my stomach sticks out now it never did before idk what to do about it

I'm gonna KMS I GOT A BANANA SPLIT AND ITS 1030 CALORIES 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬

ITS TOO LATE TO THROW IT UPPPPPP WTFFFFFF

my omad was ice cream 😝

I always look skinnier laying down

I miss when my ribs showed 😔😔😔😔😔

I keep on trying to get my mom to be okay with me (TRYING TO) model and shes like no it's such a toxic place it promotes eds and they'll want you to lose weight and show your ribs and I'm just like....I'm actually wanting that already

LIKE MY POST TO GET SKINNIER OR SOMETHING ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️this is the only form of social media where I show my face 😭 so I'm not too worried about people finding me I love my severely triggering communities though 😝💕

idk why I'm posting this tbh

I hate the fact that I naturally have a wide rib cage 🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁 No matter how much weight I lose or how skinny I get I won't have the super tiny waist and the slim upper body ☹️☹️☹️

lightning makes it always look different lol

it looks like I'm fat but I have abs 😭

random outfits 😝 tw for talking about Ed stuff under it tho

that is a actual wedding dress lol

I need to find better places to take pictures omg

I had the best vacation but I can't wait to eat less again 😭😭 it's so weird to eat 3 meals a day

does anyone else just want to purge? I just really want to at random times and it's really hard not to 😕

i wanna purge so badly

i want to starve until I can't walk right and see stars

I want to eat everything that I can, maybe even just one bite of everything that I can reach until I want to throw up

I want to throw it all up once I'm done and then redo it

I want to be sickly ghostly hauntingly pretty

Feel better by Penelope Scott is the ultimate relapse song

Still at my Grandma's... And I fucked up. Usually when I'm here, I either do really well or straight up binge, and it's appears that this time, I do both. Yesterday, I did really well actually but today was horrible. To be fair, no one in my family ate "normally" today, it's the ore-Easter shit, but I mean, they're not disordered, so I feel even more like a faker rn 😭

It's Easter tomorrow and I'm really scared. I'm feeling motivated to do well, but my family wants to go out for lunch tomorrow. I'll just get something from the kids's menu, skip breakfast and only eat a small dinner with my family if I can't avoid it.

And I really have to work on my steps! I feel awful for neglecting them, but I have a really important school project I need to work on... It feels like am excuse, but logically, it really isn't.

I mean, the day after tomorrow my Dad and I will leave already again, and the rest of the fam will stay with my grandma still, andy Dad will leave too after a few days, so my other sister and I will be home alone for a couple days at the end of the holiday s, which is great, since she doesn't really like me and won't force me to eat with her or something. Maybe she'll expect me to cook, because she's prepping for some exams, but that's fine Ig. I mean, I'm kinda planning to fast, but I'll also have to work on that school project, and I'll have to plan my eating depending on how much brain power I'll need then lol. So I have to finish as much of the project as I can now so that I'll be fine fasting/doing high res then.

Bruh why is this post so loong

The not-eating after my class was cooking went well yesterday, the teacher was so busy, she didn't even pay attention to me

Now that but four more times to go still 🥲

My class will go on a one week sailing trip in summer, so we're practicing what we'll cook and stuff, starting tomorrow - and I'm so scared. There's no way I'll eat at school, and even though it's kind of established between my friends and I that I just won't eat, what should I tell my teachers or other class mates if they ask?

I could go to the bathroom for a while once it's eating time, but what other things are there?

Please give some kind of advice guys 🥲