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What did you dream about last night?
What is your favorite color?
Do you feel more connected to the moon or the sun?
Have you ever wished on a shooting star?
Name a movie that makes you genuinely laugh.
When’s the last time you felt like you were floating?
What do you enjoy daydreaming about most?
Do you believe in guardian angels?
What’s a smell that reminds you of home?
What is something (or someone) you’re in love with?
Describe the memory of the last time you felt true happiness.
Name a song that makes you feel ethereal.
What’s your ideal summer aesthetic?
Talk about one of your most cherished childhood memories.
Talk about something exciting or good that happened to you this year.
Where do you feel most at home?
What is something you own that is important to you? What makes it so important?
Do you believe dreams have meanings or are they completely random?
Do you believe in love at first sight?
What’s the sweetest thing someone has done for you?
Do you believe in mermaids?
What do you like most about nature?
What’s your zodiac sign? Do you think you fit the general characteristics of that sign?
Are you more of a hopeless romantic or realist?
What’s a song that gives off good vibes anytime you listen to it?
Do you usually remember your dreams?
Have you ever written a love letter?
Name a book you don’t mind reading over and over.
Do you collect anything? And what are some hobbies you have?
What do you do to feel at peace?
Hoes made me so mad i became spiritually connected with the moon and turned to crystals and incense and journalled just to feel something
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About me
I love anything and everything 2000's!!!
Nickname:Rina
Age:14
Fav colour:Blue and Purple
Fave artist (as of now):Coco and Clair Clair
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Rules
°Be respectful pls
°Don't be a creepy old guy lol
° Good vibes only
°You can repost but give me some credit thxx
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About Vlog
Journalling
Motivation
Poetry/thoughtful posts
Pics(nature, pins etc)
Music
Enjoy
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work out: 40 minute run
food rules: yes
stretching: yes
studying: 3 hours
meditate: nope
⋆₊˚4/10/2024 – DAY 4 journal
The day after my binge fast was suprisingly good, I thought I'll feel sick or something but nah, it was a regular day. I started it by eating a toast with two eggs, i only ate one because i burnt them both and the second one was just.. uhh.. Yeah, then i *sadly* went to school but I'm trying to make school better to myself so i have to be positive about it. Yay! I went to school. The day wasn't bad but my bsf disrespected me and i was mad at her, tho I'm not anymore. I got a good grade form my polish class and a compliment from my russian class teacher. When i went back home i made myself lunch = a salad my mom made (with greek yogurt so extra healthy) and fried chopped sausages. Then I IMMIDIATELY without any rest went to my room and hopped on my treadmil. I ran for 40 minutes, so my work out was done! Then i again, immidiately, started studying. Okay, there was a little break but it was cleaning the kitchen, so it wasn't really a break. I studied for 3 hours straight because I have a math exam today and i didn't know anything, but i do now - yay! Then it was already dark outside and my hair was super greasy so i just took a shower and washed my hair, its sooo soft now. It was already 8PM when i finished so i went back to my room, started working on my subliminal (I didn't finish it, if anyone is intrested then bbabybrooke is the name of my channel!!). I watched some YT videos and just went to sleep 💤
work out: yes
food rules: nope.. absolutely not
stretching: yes
studying: no
meditation: nope
<10k steps, <2L of water
⋆₊˚3/10/2024 – DAY 3 journal
On sundays i have rest days but that day i had a huge binge fest lol, my breakfast was cakes, cakes, cakes, then i snacked on salad and continued to eat only sweets. My break from them was lunch, chuck steak with silesian dumplings. I felt a lil guilty so i did a HIIT workout, i didnt finish it because i felt kinda weak, but i did leg pilates after! I didn't read a book nor did i go out on a walk, so i did only maybe like 200 steps lolllll. I don't feel guilty tho, it's just one day and im not gonna repeat it. Not the end of the world!
WORK OUT: done
FOOD RULES: done
STRETCHING: done
STUDYING: done
MEDITATING: nope.
>10k steps, <2L of water
⋆₊˚2/10/2024 – DAY 2 journal
Im writing this the day, yesterday was really succesful. When i woke up, i immidiately did the first half of my work out. I did my skincare etc. and then played some games, but my parents said we're going shopping. The shopping was suprisingly calm and we joked a lot. I bought myself a salad. After we came back my sis was doing an aesthetic 'breakfast' (at 2PM LOL) for her competition (?), she took a pic of it and let us eat it. It was very yummy but i forgot what it is. Then i started reading Atomic Habits and finished a whole chapter, after that I went on a 10k steps walk and listenned to my history topic (so i was walking and studying, smart). When I came back I finished studying the topic and did the other part of my workout (HIIT). When i finished, it was already dark outside. So i mainly relaxed, ate the salad, and at 10 pm when i was going to sleep my sister came back with her boyfriend and she gave me a box of chicken! ofc i ate it lol.. but she also came back with a lot of cakes.. and my mom told to me to eat some of those. i didnt, but the next day i did (today)🥲
WORK OUT: done
FOOD RULES: done
STRETCHING: done
SHOWER: done
STUDYING AND MEDITATING: nope
--- <1500 calories, <15k steps :c
⋆₊˚1/10/2024 – DAY 1 journal
I planned to go to sleep early, wake up at 5:30 am, work out early etc. but sadly I couldn't because i had to wait for my sister to come back from work (2 hours after i was supposed to go to sleep). So, I woke up at 7am and washed my hair and showered. It took a whole hour! After washing my hair, i worked out - today was pilates, i only did half tho. Yeah, I should work out before showering BUT i take a long time in the bathroom and others wanted to get ready too, so i had to be smart and shower earlier. I did only the first 30 minutes of pilates and then stretched, I did gua sha too! Few hours later we were in the church for 2 hours and went to visit the graves of our family members. Then we went to visit my grandpa (dad's side) and it was fun ngl, we were talking and i finally didnt spend much time on my phone - instead we talked, a lot! (I'm an extreme introvert) Then we went to my grandma (mom's side), she had cake but i didn't eat any of it because im on a no sugar diet. It didn't make me sad tho, I didn't crave sugar that much today. We talked a lot too, and i didnt even take my phone! I felt sooo pretty and i actually accepted that im fr attractive (I have body dysmorphia disorder). I got two strawberry chocolate bars from my grandma (dad's side) and some cake from my grandpa (mom's side). After we came back home, i did the other part of my pilates. Then i relaxed and played DTI, did my skincare and read some books. It's sleep time now💤
diet + workout = 60 day glow up plan ::
~ 1500 cal daily - absolutely no sugar, salt, fast food and junk food - minimum 15k steps a day - at least 1.5L water a day RULES :: - eat only in the kitchen - no snacking while making food - fruits or veggies are the only snacks - do not body check (or weight check) - dont eat after 7 PM
FOOD :: breakfast = something filling with protein lunch = something that gives me energy for a workout (can be carbs, but some veggies and protein are good too, since my mom makes lunch) dinner = something light, can be a salad
WORKOUT :: monday :: 1 hour run tuesday :: 30 minute strenght training (full body) wednesday :: 1 hour pilates abs focused thursday :: 40 minute run + 30 minute strenght training (legs) friday :: 1 hour pilates full body saturday :: 30 minute HIIT + 30 minute strenght training sunday :: 20 minutes yoga + active rest day DAILY :: study at least 3 topics do lymphatic drainage massage stretch after and before sleep skincare + take care of your hair read books dont spend too much time on internet meditate track ur progress do SATS and avoid the mirror
: ̗̀➛ Ways to take care of yourself
Make a workout plan that works well with your menstrual cycle.
Deep clean your room.
Take an everything shower.
Plan your week.
Eat a nutritious snack.
Try a new recipe.
Buy a new fragnance or scented lotion.
Stretch or do yoga.
Talk to yourself.
Look in the mirror and point out every nice thing about yourself.
Read or reread the book you love.
Study for the next test.
Cut blue light an hour before sleeping.
Drink tea after waking up.
Limit your screen time.
Don't surround yourself with negative media (art, posts, etc.).
Dress up nicely.
Research a topic you like
Replay your favourite game.
Spend some time with the person you love and care about.
Try to understand the cause of your bad habits.
Look at motivating (not toxic) posts.
Affirm after waking up and before going to sleep.
Buy a beautiful and comfortable pijama.
Rearrange your room.
Find a new, intresting hobby.
Look for a fragnance that suits you and your personality the best.
Write out the things you want to change about yourself.
Don't skip important hygiene; brushing teeth, washing hair, skipping skincare, showering.
Take a hot relaxing bath.
Completely relax and just think without any distractions; music, subliminals, etc.
Set a new yet small goal you want to work towards to.
Remind yourself of your journey and how far you've come.
Work on your posture.
Cuddle with your animal.
Take a nap.
Buy a new candle.
Romanticise your life and every small thing about it.
Drink some lemon/cucumber water.
Find a new intresting show.
Create a new playlist with your favourite songs.
Find a new comfort YouTuber.
Think about your fun childhood memories.
Try a new form of exercise.
Make a vision board.
Get a therapist, and if you can't: talk with strangers online.
Listen to yout favourite subliminals.
Create a moodboard.
Create a new peace of jewerly.
Give away the clothes you dont wear anymore.
Create a visionboard and look at it everyday while affirming.
Try a new makeup style.
Go out without doing your makeup.
Get used to your 'effortless' look; no makeup, lay clothes, tied hair.
Get used to failing and learn from your mistakes.
Be grateful for the simple things you're blessed with.
Listen to a podcast.
Go on a walk.
Choose your kind of 'perfection'.
Think about deep topics and write about it.
--- DIET & WORK OUT PLAN
Since I am short, I need less calories than a tall person. = 1400 calories daily with minimum 65g of protein (cut sugar, eat clean). 2L of water everyday and lots of tea!
Run for 40 to 60 minutes a day, do minimum 30 minute elongating pilates.
Drink a lot of warm tea and at least 2L of water.
I will listen to multiple fat loss and 20 cm waist subliminals 🌸
Lymphatic drainage massage, gua sha daily.
Do calming yoga before sleep and after waking up
---- 2/10/2024 entry
* Today I downloaded GTA the trilogy!! I'm starting with GTA III and it looks good.
* My sister is changing schools, she's 18 so she can do whatever she wants but my mom is so heartbroken, it's so sad to see her this way.
* I felt an urge to relapse into starving, but I KILLED that urge, murdered, gone !!
* On Monday I'll have swimming classes so i decided to go on a 1200 kcal diet until Monday, I'll do HIIT daily and walk a lot + 16:8. Ik thats kinda unhealthy but i wanna look good quick and i swear ill return to eating normal after monday LOLLL
* I was on a walk with my mom for like an hour and a half, I absolutely love walking with her, and I love her, she's the best <3
* That's it lol, nothing really happenned :') byeee🩷🪽
---- 1/10/2024 entry
* It's finally october, yay! I love fall, it's so cozy and its perfect for staying inside, sleeping, reading or baking. It's also the month where i will start my diet and working out again, since tomorrow ill have a mini treadmill!
* Today was fine, ig. I had two tests at school and got A's from both. After school I slept the whole day. The only thing that makes me kinda mad is that I have two freaking pimples on my forehead, ughhh I hate getting my period.
* Did yall heard about the Diddy situation? I digged so much into it, spent 3 hours straight watching YouTube videos about it that I don't think I'll sleep tonight. Im just so sorry for his victims - he's disgusting and he's gonna rot in hell. I also believe he killed Tupac..
* That's it for today! Ik, pretty boring, but a journal is a journal, so I had to write an entry loll !! Bye angels xx 🩷🪽
---- 30/09/2014 entry
* Today was, alright, I guess? I got my period yesterday after not having it for 5 months!! My stomach was kinda hurting all the time but not too much. My first two classes were P.E, we ran for an hour (11°C 😭) and then played volleyball. I love running but that was just.. brutal. The rest of my classes were okay.
* I decided to do a 3 day challenge. It's about listenning to subliminals/affirmation tapes and affirming all the time. Mine is about looking like Taylor Hill and being beautiful!
* After school I baked oatmeal cookies the first time in my life, they turned a bit burned and I put too little sugar in it, but they were fine after putting honey on them! I ate 11 at once LOLL
* I guess that's it, that day was like another average day. XOXO angels 🩷🪽
First day of school 🏫🍂
Sunmer passed so fast, it was fun and i have a lot of menories, but August was getting so boring, i just wanted summer to pass and fall to come. I'm kinda excited ngl haha, i love studying (especially biology and chemistry) so this fall will be a Gilmore Girls fall!! (or gossip girl, but just the aesthetic). My backpack is really heavy cause i have books and self care things like makeup or a hairbush in case if an emergency. I hope today will be calm and just the way i imagined it to be! 🧡
I recently bought a copy of the third journal from Gravity Falls!! ☺️
writing diaries
So I used to be a wattpad fanfic (and orig horror) author with dreams of being an author, but I gave up in high school to pursue something more "realistic" and now in my mid 20's I've decided to make steps to become an author. I have 3 ideas floating around but when it comes to actually writing them down I have a really hard time, so Ive been stuck in this limbo of not being able to stop thinking about these future project but not being able to create them. THEN I started reading On Writing by Stephen King and he's been kinda kicking me into shape, he said (more or less) to be a writer you have to write and I realized that there's too much pressure for me to sit down and write a book im emotionally attached to and I need to dust off my tools first.
All that being said I've decided I will pick random writing prompts and just write short stories on pieces of paper like god intended. This experiment will hopefully make me feel more confident in my abilities while also not giving me the stress to have to make it perfect. Will these see the light of day? probably not. that's what im hoping will unlock my spark again!
I will update this blog with how the experiment is going! I am a human guinea pig starting......NOW!
I'm back!
I was gone for 4 days straight cause I was out of town to celebrate a birthday. I actually did a lot of work on my clinic report during these 4 days and now I'm mostly exhausted and trying to finish everything left of the semester.
I still plan to be here and track my progress, I think I just need some time to adjust to my regular schedule again so I am not burning myself out even more.
Miss y'all 🩵
03/25/2025
Tired school days pass by the quickest... Finally sitting in front of my laptop at 10pm to do more schoolwork (according to my planner), and once again, I wonder how my brain wandered off to a different space and time since 6pm.
Current mood 🙃:
Completed
✅ Doctor's appointment
✅ Classes
✅ Part-time job
✅ Food
✅ 30-min nap with my dog
✅ Randomly listened to an audiobook ad on YouTube for 1 hour...
✅ Clinic note
✅ New semester survey
✅ Check school email and reply
✅ Group project highlight
✅ Group paper section outline
To-Dos (still...)
⏹️ At least 1 hour of thesis writing
Venting: It's hard to not feel disappointed in myself for not working on any actual thesis writing in the past 2 days, especially when I keep telling myself that today is the day. I seriously just want my brain to not run away from my thesis because I feel like time is running out. I'm so exhausted both physically and mentally at this point that I just want to sleep for a whole day before doing anything. But I'm not sure if this is actually feasibly. I just feel so stuck in my brain right now that I just want to dump all my anxiety and fears out so my mind can shut up and do the actual work. Why is it so hard??? Ugh, and now I feel like I am not being kind to myself... But I really need to complain a bit. Life has been rough recently with school and it's not something that someone can solve for me.
Journal
I got into a car accident with my friend today... This was my very first one with an actual collision. Crazy enough, I was in shock at first and cried, but then once I realized what was going on, my brain decided to shut out my emotions and be logical about all the things I needed to do and all the people I needed to contact.
I don't know, I feel like I need to be the strong one in this situation. I can see how distressed my friend is and how guilty she is for the accident, and I just can't bring myself to make her feel any worse. There's a lot on my mind now... Are my pain and bruises going to go away soon? Are my travel plans for Spring Break going to work out? Is my dog going to be OK after the accident? Am I actually suffering from internal bleeding? Lol I realize I have a morbid sort of humor as well.
Tbh writing this out makes me feel really sad about my progress with thesis. I was literally started a routine and tracking how I am doing each day, and then "bam!", life hits you in a way you never expected.
I mean, yes, I am grateful I survived (especially my friend and my dog) because someone could have died. And then what? Where do my emotions go? How do I process all of this? How can I express my feelings while not feeling like I'm hurting my friend?
It's going to be OK. That's what I keep telling myself. I truly believe in it. I just don't know how that's going to happen. We shall see...
Day 4
On days like this, I feel like I'm stepping backward, unwinding all the hard work I've put forward in the past few days. It hasn't even been a week yet...
My dog has been whining right before I go to bed to be taken out. Having presentations and essays back-to-back for my classes. Group projects are due soon. Spring break is in a few days. My thesis work is ongoing but not where I need it to be. - Things just aren't right.
I want to feel excited again. I want to feel alive again. I want to be free.
When I got home from school today, I laid down on the couch and started reading a webnovel. I ended up napping for two hours, and then realize that I still need to make food and it'll be time for bed. But I still have my daily assignments I need to get done, and my notes, and my thesis, and... My mind is going in a spiral but my body is moving like a turtle. All I want to do is read my webnovel and escape my stressful reality at the moment.
I'm going to muster the little strength that I still have to complete the essentials for tomorrow, and then call it a night. Maybe it is a day of necessary rest today.
Realizations
It hit me that studying is a lonely process.
No matter how much you connect with others on the topic of studying or study with others in the same place, it doesn't take away the fact that the learning process is a solo act.
Sometimes no one even knows when you are working hard. It is not a glorious process, but so many of us continue to do it day after day.
Maybe studying is how we will get closer to our goals and success. Maybe it gives you meaning. Maybe it gives you strength.
To be alive and still capable of learning. A lonely process but connects you with academics from the past and future.
I bound my first book! It was so much fun and I plan on making more as gifts for my family. The stitching is a little wonky, and I cheated on some of the smaller pages but I love how it turned out! I learned so much about books and how they are made from @sealemon 's YouTube channel. Please check out her content!
Here's the first spread I've done:
I hope to fill the whole book with journal spreads based on my favourite quotes, books, and songs. I love @olivebreezy 's blog, it's full of beautiful journal spreads and great inspiration!
Nervous and excited as I go back to school 😅 maybe I should take some school pictures 😏
